Why cant I sleep? Ever since i got back from break I just haven't had a pleasant nights sleep. I feel like I have all this energy inside and no outlet for it to escape. I can't clear my mind.
This is an email from the guy who hired Will and I.
Hi Will,
It is getting even hotter and oh so dry. It will be tough, hard, and somewhat dangerous work. Please be prepared for hard, full days of labor in the forest. There will be 2 Danish strong, smart, fit, and friendly teenagers (Chris and Mette) joining you on June 27. Each team will be assigned 10 acres. I have you booked to run the Green River, Desolation and Grey Canyons.
As private contracters, you and Tyler will be paid (cash) by the acre completed. If you work efficiently, you can make $10-15/hour. If not, the system is semi linear downward. You are your own bosses. No one will wake you up in the morning but the very hot sun. You will SAFELY and CAREFULLY cut, lop, sort, pile, haul, and chip TONS of small diameter pinon and juniper trees. You will use adjacent previously worked areas as your obvious model. I will work with you a couple of days to get you started. It would be good for you to read up on chain saw use, maintanance, and safety. Also, read about thinning small diameter pinon - juniper forest and how it improves land productivity. You will help the grass to grow and improve forest health.
You will set up a camp, live in tents and sleeping bags (provided) in the forest, control your own hours and schedule, buy your own food, do your own cooking (BIG fire danger-be careful) and cleaning, and bath occasionally in a windmill tank. There are 2 good riding horses for a Sunday ride. Maintenance is very important. If your tools fail, you must fix them. No tools- no income- simple.
You will have access to a truck to go to town (Estancia NM, 13 miles away) for supplies, laundry and a cold beer and good burger (served by a pretty, hard working Hispanic girl at Blue Ribbon Bar) once a week. Life will be very simple and focused. You will wish daily for a cloud and cool rain.
I will be in touch and pick you up Tuesday.
Cheers, DG
Hopefully I'll be able to find a computer in Albuquerque and write some more on here. See you all in five weeks.
I heard from the rancher yesterday. He said that there is no point in Will and I bring our computers or cellphones. Apparently the train car that we are sleeping in doesn't have electricity (I kind of thought it wouldn't). He said we won't get service but I'm still going to bring my cellphone for comfort reasons. The only time I will have internet or cell service is when Will and I drive into Albuquerque on the weekends. I'm going to take lots of pictures and maybe even keep a journal (maybe). I don't really mind the not having electricity, but I do hope we have indoor plumbing. I've never liked outhouses. It's always where my fear of spiders really kicks in. I feel like i have no time left to do anything before I leave. I should probably start packing.
06/14/10
A week from tomorrow I will be flying to New Mexico with Will. I'm excited but also really nervous. In the past Will and I together have been able to handle anything but we've never done something like this. We are going to be gone for over a month in a small town 40 miles southeast of Albuquerque. We'll be sleeping in an old train car with two Danish dudes that are there for the same work we are. I don't exactly know what the work is, just that it involves thinning trees. I think its so the grass can get sunlight and grow for the cows to eat, but I'm not sure. Will also told me that he and I each get our own horses and all the meat we can eat. Anyway, I'm just a little nervous.
These are the four finish stone carvings for my class. I would love to hear your feedback.
I've really been slacking off recently which sucks because there is so much i want to do. Part of it is that my teacher doesn't really like the work I've been doing for class and it's been really discouraging. I like to jump in to art with nothing but an idea and it has always worked out well for me but no i find myself being hesitant. So as of today I've decided to stop caring what my teacher thinks and get back to why I joined this class. TO CARVE STONE! If you need me, I'll be in the art annex.
02/16/10
Gazing at the stars through the night sky,
Searching for the eyes that showed me how to fly.
I can not recall the way to this place,
Lost in a blur as I followed your pace.
Yet the familiar graze of wind on my hand,
Reminds me exactly where I now stand.
As I prepare myself to soar through the air,
The night sky opens between strands of your hair.
Your face emerges from out of the night
Its beauty revealed wreathed in moonlight
With a gust of wind I jump into space,
As the dream fades away with your final embrace.
02/06/10
I want you to see me. But you can't, can you. You don't.
"Why am I afraid to dance, I who love music and rhythm and grace and song and laughter? Why am I afraid to live, I who love life and the beauty of flesh and the living colors of the earth and sky and sea? Why am I afraid to love, I who love love?"
01/18/10 8:23pm
"I love that feeling. You know, the one you get when you take a deep breath and suddenly everything feels like it’s going to be okay. When you’re hopeless as can be, and life is going nowhere, there’s those moments we have every now and then where we just stop, and we get this feeling, that can’t be described, but you just.. you just feel like everything really is going to be okay. Like the world stopped spinning for a second, and everything was clear. I need more of those moments."
01/16/10 11:53pm
"I dream sometimes about flying. It starts out like I'm running really really fast, like I'm superhuman. And the terrain starts to get really rocky and steep. And then I'm running so fast that my feet aren't even touching the ground and I'm floating. And its like this amazing feeling. I'm free and I'm safe. But then I realize, I'm completely alone." -Summer
12/14/09 5:00pm
it has rained for most of the day
and all the snow has gone away
mist rolls in and covers my sight
there won't be any stars tonight
39 hours and counting without sleep... this is going to be interesting.
I wrote this on 11/19/09 at 1:45am
"Why do I stop myself from crying around people. But as soon as I'm alone I can't seem to stop. Most people see their emotions in music, books, or movies. All I have to do is look outside and see it written on the sky. It's even more fitting tonight when you consider that the wind and rain knocked out the power. thank you nature, you always understand me."
It's now 12/06/09 at 2:30am
It's lightly snowing tonight, but it melts as soon as it hits the ground. And if every snowflake knew it's fate, it would still fall just to show us it's beauty.
It is so satisfying when things go exactly according to plan. It's been happening more and more lately.
"There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy"
-Hamlet Act I, Scene V
I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.
And I watered it in fears
Night and morning with my tears,
And I sunned it with smiles
And with soft deceitful wiles.
And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright,
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine -
And into my garden stole
When the night had veiled the pole;
In the morning, glad, I see
My foe outstretched beneath the tree.
-William Blake
This dino reminded me of you, Alex
I know you are looking for some emotional stuff here but I tell you about that in person when you ask. So instead I'm going to show some of my pictures from this year so far. What do you want me to put on here?
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